Hot Hot Hot.

So I've said it before and I'll say it again. Inconsideration is my BIGGEST pet peeve. and I know i'm not always the innocent party. BUT in a communal space, you need more of it.

It's 100 degrees out. Our air only works on the first floor, so 4 (counting me) people are sleeping in our living room. When you go to bed by 11, it'd be nice to let roommates not home know, that's all I'm saying. 2/3 were asleep at 11 when i got home. shades drawn, house completely dark. I need a fucking light, I don't want to trip and kill myself, and i have a ton of crap in my hands. So when you go to bed that early do not give me dirty looks when i need a light at 11. Coming from the ppl that used to party 5 days a week. But I'm not trying to judge them for that. Their excuse? i've previously not told them where I was and didn't come home. There have been 2 nights, just 2 nights i haven't come home alllll summer. Hardly usual. Hardly routine. Hardly an excuse. I'm ready to get a freaking hotel room to get out of my apartment. The heat makes everyone cranky enough. and unlike my roommates I don't have friends with pools that I can go swim in after school. I'm stuck here. Hot. Or I go to work. So i don't think that asking for a little extra consideration is too much to ask for. and to help things, the second floor could be livable. If I lived on our second floor, i think i could sleep in my bed with fans. But no, they're all on the first floor. But no, I live on the 3rd floor which is literally unlivable. it's impossible. No air at ALL gets up there. I'm tempted to go up there and try to sleep tonight just to get away from everyone. I'm ready to rent a hotel room, with money I don't have.

Oh and yesterday I stop home to pick up a few more things before going to make dinner, and the roommate I've known for 2.5 years is crying and on the phone, and i'm asking whats wrong and the New roommate is all "i'll tell you later" WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? I've known her for over 2 years, you've known her 2 months! And I don't get clued in? I'm not "in" on it. Wow. Fuck you too. I haven't been swearing. I've been stopping. But I am So FUCKING sick of this bullshit. I cannot wait to move out.

As if my life isn't stressed enough these days, between school, a sucky job, moving out of my childhood home... you know things that are no big deal. Stressing because I'm graduating soon... ughhhh

Sorry this one wasn't more motivational. I just needed a vent sesh. My friends are busy, and a lot of them I haven't talked to in a while... we're all busy. it sucks. I just want to control my own life.