Monday, December 5, 2011
Lost in the Music
Do you ever get lost in a song?
Sometimes its the first time you hear it.
I just wanna close my eyes and sway
breathe it in
feel it on a whole different level
remote from my body.
sometimes it's the first time.
Others
the 50th.
But this time it's different
it's like a time machine
and i could be walking past a store,
restaurant, or it comes on my ipod
and it makes me want to just
freeze
right where i am
because the second i catch the song
my soul gets sucked away
my heart drops,
stomach flutters
and it's hard to breathe
really i'm just afraid to breathe
because i want the moment to last.
I'm sucked back to another time
Dancing with the world a blur in CR
Driving with the windows down
music up
singing.. no screaming as loud as i can
just because it feels good
Studying my brains out
Depressed after the crush didn't work out
I know they don't all sound happy
but there's value there.
substance.
Me.
It's all a part of me
and it's like i'm on a train
and somedays it's crawling
and i watch out the window
and it lasts forever and i drink in
and somedays it's speeding to fast
spiraling
and i don't have enough time
the sun sets too soon
and i get caught standing outside
trying to catch raindrops
or snowflakes
but I can't grasp them
it's slipping awayyyyyyyy
and i'm back in the present
and this hole that i'd forgotten for a while,
it's back
and it's uncomfortable.
Not downright painful but almost worse.
Restless, pulling, yearning.
And i look back and I see me
A better me than i've ever felt.
And I want it back
Do you know what it's like to lose that?
To walk away
get on the plane peacefully
watch out the window as it all slips away
drops away beneath you
and all you want to do is scream
"land the plane, I made a mistake"
"I'm not ready to go yet"
Cut to present day, and what i do get is the music
these snippets of time i steal away lost in the song
Just me and my memories
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